Genuinely Jazz

There is so many steps in the journey of healing, but the journey is never linear…

Some days you feel like you’ve done so much work, healing, and progress. You look at where you are and you’re proud of how far you’ve come on your path. Seems like things are finally coming together. It can be the tiniest things that make you feel that way. Taking a shower doesn’t feel like a chore, making it to the gym even if its just once a week, making your bed, or waking up on time and getting up once you’re alarm goes off. these are the days we long for on our healing journey. When we feel like we’re FINALLY getting better. maybe, just maybe we can cross the finish line on our journey to healing our wounds.

Then there are days you wake up feeling like you’re back to square one. Feeling all the pain, hurt, and grief from the trauma or loss we experience. 

It could be a song on the radio, a movie or show you’re watching, a photo that shows up in your memories, a friend that reaches out on the day you’re feeling defeated and it all comes back.

The song on the radio hit so deep you had to pull over to just bawl your eyes out for a few minutes and let out the sadness. a rough day brings out the rage and anger wanting to hit something as hard as you can to feel the pain leaving your body. You need to find the tallest lonely mountain to scream at the top of your lungs in hopes that it will give you the answers to all your questions that you ask with no response

Just know that there is growth in all those feelings, with each of those emotions your path to mending all those broken pieces are slowing coming together. we realized as were picking up the piece and putting them back together, some parts are cracked and fall again. That’s okay, some will forever be missing and understanding that we can’t piece every single piece and put it back. As we overcome the circumstances, we change and grow and piece that once fit no longer belong.

Everything we’ve gone through; we’re almost about to reach the end of our healing journey and be better for good. No more sadness, anger, rage, denial. but just so you know there is no finish line. We never fully heal. We just become stronger, resilient, and renew ourselves. BUT just because there isn’t a finish line doesn’t mean we don’t get better. We Do. just keep doing the work. feel the emotion but don’t let them dictate your life.

-Jazz